Tyler And Taylor London

How do I say goodbye?
When I didn’t get to say hello
I want so bad to keep you –
How do I let you go?
I have so many dreams,
so much love I want to share,
There’s nothing I can do:
Why is life unfair?
You’re my perfect angel,
I dreamed you long ago,
I got to hold you for a while
And it breaks my heart to let you go.
The pain and confusion I feel inside
I cannot explain: I cannot describe.
God will rock you in your cradle
And watch you as you sleep.
I will love you in my heart –
It’s all I get to keep.
You are blessed my child,
You’re in heaven above
You’ll never be alone,
You have Mummy and Daddy’s love.
Hush my little baby,
You need never cry, You were always wanted,
I wish you didn’t die.
You’ll be my sunshine in the daylight
And the brightest star at night
Reach for God’s hand
And go to the light
I would rather endure
The pain of losing you right now
Than the thought of you
suffering through life.
We’ll get through somehow
I was blessed to have you briefly
Even though I have to let you go.
I wish I knew the reason,
But I guess I’ll never know

Tyler And Taylors Mommy (Mother) April 13, 2008

How do i explain?

I am in love with an Angel
And this i can not explain
If you have not lost like i have,
your ears wont hear the same

You can not hear my heart ache
You cannot hear my despair
You will not feel my yearning
You can not feel my heart tear

It tears a little more each day
But your eyes they can not see
I really want to show you
How much my Angel means to me

You might think you understand
And i do know that you care
But unless you have lost someone close
There's no knowing my despair

One day i feel so terribly lost
In depths i have never been
The next i feel such overwhelming love
I am bursting at the seams


I can not explain it all to you
I love my Angel more than you can tell
I try to keep this under control
But sometimes i want to yell

I want to tell the whole wide world
That my Angel and i did not part
But i cant show people physically
that Angel lives within my heart

Tyler And Taylors Mommy (Mother) April 13, 2008

Gift of a child

I’ll lend you for a little time
A child of mine, he said,
For you to love him while he lives
And mourn for when he’s gone.

It may be six or thirteen years,
Or twenty-two, or three,
But will you, till I call him back
Take care of him for me?

He’ll bring his charm to gladden you
And should his stay be brief,
You’ll have his lovely memories
As solace for your grief.

I cannot promise he will stay
Since all from earth return,
But there are lessons taught down there
I want this child to learn.

I’ve looked this wide world over
In search of teachers true
And from the throngs that crowd life’s lane
I’ve decided upon you.

Now will you give him all your love
Nor think the labour vain
And hate me when I come to call
To take him home again.

I fancy that I heard them say
‘Dear Lord thy will be done,
For all the joy, this child will bring
The risk of grief, we’ll run.

We’ll shelter him with tenderness
And love him while we may
And for the happiness we’ve known
Forever grateful stay.

And should the angels call for him
Much sooner than we planned,
We’ll brave the sadness that we feel
And try to understand.

Tyler And Taylors Mommy (Mother) April 12, 2008

Laura xxx

May God touch your life
In a very special way
As you have touched my life
In all you do and say
For I’m eternally grateful
For a special friend like you
A friend that is heaven sent
So faithful and so true.

thank you Laura
for all your support it really
means alot thank you for all your candles
and most of all your care love Tracey xxx

Tracey Gavin Moores Partner (Friend) April 10, 2008

Happy Angel Day Tyler!

Tyler, I can't believe it's been a whole year since you left me baby. The pain is still raw, I miss you so so much. I ache for you constantly wishing I was with you and your brother. Why is life so unfair sometimes? I will always love and miss you and you'll be in my heart every second of every minute of every day. Play nice with your brother sweetheart he's only little remember. Happy angel day beautiful, all my love and much much more, Mommy xxxx xxxx xxxxxxx

Tyler And Taylors Mommy (Mother) April 4, 2008

good morning laura im so sorry for the loss of your 2 precious children please dont blame yourself you gave them life it just wasnt their time i can understand how you feel i lost 9 babys 5 times out of the 9 i was having twins i believe it just wasnt their time i know the torment you put yourself through but please dont give up sending you my love for you and your family xxxxxxxxx

Suzanne Elliott (Friend) April 4, 2008

FOR ANGEL TYLER ON HIS 1ST ANNIVERSARY OF GAINING HIS ANGEL WINGS

THOUGH YOU CANNOT SEE OR TOUCH ME
ILL BE NEAR
IF YOU LISTEN WITH YOUR HEART
YOU WILL HEAR
ALL MY LOVE AROUND YOU
SO SOFT AND DEAR
THEN WHEN YOU MUST COME
THIS WAY ALONE
ILL GREET YOU WITH A SMILE
AND SAY WELCOME HOME
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NO FAREWELL WORDS WERE SPOKEN
NO TIME TO SAY GOODBYE
YOU WERE GONE BEFORE WE KNEW IT
ONLY GOD KNOW WHY ?
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GOODBYES ARE NOT FOREVER
GOODBYES ARE NOT THE END
THEY SIMPLY MEAN ILL MISS YOU
UNTILL WE MEET AGAIN
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NEVER A DAY DO WE FORGET YOU
IN OUR HEARTS YOU ARE ALWAYS HERE
GOD ALONE KNOWS HOW WE MISS YOU
AS ENDS ANOTHER SAD YEAR
OUR HEARTS STILL ACHE WITH SADNESS
OUR SECRET TEARS STILL FLOW
FOR WHAT IT MEANT TO LOSE YOU TYLER
NOONE WILL EVER KNOW
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FOR YOUR MUMMY AND DADDY
THEY SAY THERE IS A REASON
THEY SAY THAT TIME WILL HEAL
BUT NEITHER TIME NOR REASON
WILL CHANGE THE WAY WE FEEL
FOR NOONE KNOWS THE HEARTBREAK
THAT LIES BENEATH THE SMILES
NOONE KNOWS HOW MANY TIMES
WE BROKEN DOWN AND CRIED
WE WANT TO TELL YOU SOMETHING TYLER
SO THERE WONT BE ANY DOUBT
YOUR SO WONDERFULL TO THINK OFF
BUT SO VERY HARD TO LIVE WITHOUT
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I JUST WANT TO SAY IM THINKING ABOUT YOU BOTH ON THIS VERY DIFFICULT DAY AND WANT YOU TO KNOW ITS HARD FOR YOU BUT YOU ARE NOT ALONE WE ARE ALL HERE ON GTS FOR YOU AND YOUR FAMILY IF YOU EVER NEED TO TALK OR WANT TO CRY DO SO IT HELPS ILL BE HERE FOR YOU IF NEED TO TALK XXLOTS OFF LOVE FROM TINA A GTS FRIEND ALWAYS XX

Tina Terry Charnocks Sister (XXX A FRIEND WHO CARES XXXXXX) April 4, 2008

I am so deeply sorry for the loss of your two little angels. Your tribute to them is wonderful, they will be very proud of you. I do know how you feel, having had 9 pregancies and only 3 children living. Please be strong and I am sure your boys are watching over you and keeping you safe xxxxx

Helen Cox (Passerby and someone who knows and cares deeply) April 4, 2008

Dear Tyler,
This time last year I was looking forward so much to meeting you and to gain another family member. I loved every moment of being pregnant with you, you were such a good baby. The way we used to go out with Daddy with his silly music in the car hehe and the way you used to dance to Billy Joel! Every time I here your special song I cry for you. I could tell that you were a boy and I can imagine a beautiful one at that. The way you used to react to the speed bumps and kick your Daddy! You made me so proud Tyler, you really did. Everything was going perfect, you were getting bigger so Mommy was growing and I wanted to show you to the whole wide world that I was going to be your Mommy, finally the Mommy that I've always dreamt of being. I looked at Daddy and pictured everything being so perfect, I couldn't have been happier. But then I failed you and the guilt still follows me around even to this day, I'm so sorry for failing you I really am. Since you left me my life's been a rollercoaster of emotions. All my dreams shattered. But not one day has passed when I haven't thought about you and wondered what if? If you would have my blue eyes and look exactly like your Daddy. My mood, Daddy's temper, my laugh, Daddy's smile. Things that I think about every day. Just becaue your not here in person doesn't mean your not part of my life, I think about you all the time. I long to hold you and when I get the chance I will never let you go. On Friday it will be a year since I lost you, a whole year. How I cried for you and 12 months down the line I still do. Packing for when we go away, I broke down thinking I should be packing for 4 and look like a beach whale carrying your brother. But life's so unfair. I let you down and for that I will never ever be able to forgive myself. I should have been able to protect you but I couldn't. I've only ever wanted to be a proper Mommy, dress you, feed you, love you. And now in the last 10 months I've failed both you and your brother and it's hurts so so much. I couldn't physically go through that again, the pain is too much to bear and I wouldn't wish it on my worst enemy. I think about you every day Tyler, wishing that you were with me now. I love you so much and I always, always will.
Mommy xxxx

Tyler And Taylors Mommy (Mother) March 30, 2008

sending my love and thoughts to you Laura

Please dont think that you have failed your boys,they felt your love and care,its hard to carry on i know but they are with you always.My heart goes out to you Laura and im sending you all my love xx

Mommy March 16, 2008